Lately what do you know about side area. Youre probably thinking all well and rich kids. A nightmare for women and an extreme interpretation of islam. Things people in the west take for granted are a lot. Mixing with opposite sex. Or talking about politics. But you might also have heard the things have opened up recently under the new crown prince women are now allowed to drive. And for the 1st time men and women have been allowed to listen to Music Together in public. Money is best man and i work as a fashion side its in london. But ive never felt totally at home. I grew up in Northern Ireland but i was born in saudi arabia to sudanese parents this is saudi its right yeah you know straight. Man to be begging me to come back to saudi arabia and hope i might be convinced to move there. So. I. Decided to live with them for 2 weeks to see what my life would be like loved ones as are the numbers. The time the chokehold a star resisting attempts to return to the saudi saudi or not having a great time at least in western media and yeah we dont talk about. Would i be allowed to party thats the sad thing that i would. If i lived here or go on a date should hinder well if theyre all to go to do you know. That this journey is going to be much more challenging and i imagine are you uncomfortable or is it in the rules going to be. Happy i still going to get in trouble and also know that this is crazy but i literally was just reading an article oh. Ok if you think dollars bond. Im finally on my way to saudi arabia. Which is relieving news breaks about a Society Journalist who walked into the Saudi Embassy in turkey and never came out and. Thats an interesting title change be allowed to go and make it i said no. I dont wear a headscarf back home but my aunt to me to put it on for me that. The craziest thing that can happen really you know. Now i have to find out if i can move back to my birth country. You know now. Im entering saudi jess the director of the film. Is 2 women we hope to see things that a male crew might not be able to. Not to mention inside of mans house. Oh im not going to leave here the least i meet him and. My cousin not just money its us. And them with me that. Im a little cousin sitra. And. I last of us we did it. The fighting and fighting the fight i would write down. My leg for a fact that you dont want to hear here you can add to it. And not like everyones talking about it in the same you know whatever no not really. Im going to be living here with a laugh. A mother to mr imus back. So i refer to them all as im new to. This is citrus moment the youngest of my and. Former colleague. d and this is the Middle Sister hes visiting from sudan. I feel really. The only man in the house is much better husband he doesnt want to be on camera. That he. Has worked as a University Professor here for 25 years. Something you never heard of by. The frick up with these women theyre all that my mother and i seem to think is fine if you look at them you love me but it isnt something. I thought i would feel really unsafe being here is so far i feel nothing but sifting. Through you are. Weak you. Will see that ok. Youll look. Them should morning linda. I think its a big issue that you dont understand i believe by. And by. And its not what i say and that may sound i ducked. And i have to say that you may have had what has that little jadick to like you do love me. Why. Although the dress code seems to have listened and that man stressed me the way they like. This now they want that. We. Get it down kitty let everybody know yeah yeah youre. Part of the deal for being allowed to film is our company but fixers and a government minder at all times. We need them downstairs. Loved ones that are being let off. By something up with the new. Law if you love. To. Come to them over a beer. Which is a mix of the usual western brands but also special about shops. So block and you know. What sizes. Thats tried out. I dont need it though. So the prices prices that they. Need to me 700 pounds. I knew we were going to get but. No next check right. Now as were Walking Around and noticed that most women are wearing film cards but like man said there are also lots of women wearing open a bias and no headscarf at all. So im going to leave thats like thats ok. A lot not a problem right. Are you ok listen. Are you uncomfortable or is it the rules. Shes not wearing even. Before we get a chance to try anywhere else all the shops close for prayer. I just think youre right. I dont really stop to pray in my normal life but i go along with it for man. But when we come right our fixer suddenly angry asking why jess and i arent wearing a bias in you to do things like going to get what you. Mean just the filming director are both dressed in dark loose for like clothing that my aunts helped us choose but apparently its not good enough nothing and. No thank you i. Was hoping you didnt think that if i. Did you could maybe ill sit on that. I managed to find a pink for 50 pounds. Im. Happy. Everyone wins. Im a bit annoyed by the way the sixers handled the situation but i also get that with the case they might be a bit more a match. You realize all these women are turning around so you can get them jess all of them i know that not everybody wants to be on t. V. But here i feel like theres more to it. I get talking to a girl to check out every single time we have a congress all the women get really scared of the congress and i dont really understand what theyre. About to pick up because it really doesnt matter what we. Do a lot of you now have lets chat and face. Both the world wide web. So is a lot of it to do with fathers and husbands. Who just want. To. Do you agree with their you dont because you dont mind. So if this. Ok thank you should question children by. This interest machine instead of instruments fine being on t. V. Is not. Saying that the internet is worse than t. V. Nowadays. Social media seems to be the place to breakthroughs. But it can have consequences. A woman from saudi arabia was arrested after snapchat video surfaced of her Walking Around in egypt in a mini skirt and her hair exposed on the roof and in saudi you could be punished for even sitting next to a member of the opposite sex at work and in gyptian a man has been arrested in saudi arabia after he posted a video of himself having breakfast with a coworker. Social media isnt so relevant for mt. Iran so many women cover themselves up completely i wonder if she ever feels pressured to do so. Thats number one you ever feel like a judge but here for not wearing and the cops. Are really nationalities for me i find that. Is important. For me i dont wish to move on i think its a choice. Well i know what i can say i think its a choice you know officer you know i am a city so this is a choice to me like a choice for me that i wear the way i am. Somewhat for me to where he of the lesser extreme i dont think its a must for me to even wear it up so its your petition of what you want to be what someone says yeah you have to wreckage of by i dont buy i dont wear one yeah but so that if i dont have to anything i dont want to have the white but im not to follow your religion right but i dont but i but i but then us and thats its a messy line. I mean. You know. I dont want to i dont want to. Fight. You know to make me feel like you have to Say Something very much like i couldnt i guess my own personal opinion. On the whole thing would be. All my life ive tried delicate line between how i want to behave how my family expects of me. Being here is dragging up lots of my old battles. And even just like living from it was like in the car and i stood outside the car and the music was playing and then just like shimmy to the top it never happened i dont. Know what youre going to get in trouble if you dont and i was like. I havent talked to anyone thats my age. All of that is talk to adults and men alike are 100 minders. So you. Knew not long ago religious police could have a recipe for western music there on instagram so they are right in the open and are still getting away with. This you know that this is a. I decided to take up an invite from a friend of a friend have been speaking to on line to go to the launch party the magazine that is 7 minutes away. I know that jesse that theyre looking a lot but i will by the way when we come in ok ok i dont know why but i was going to say ok ok im not. Were here i know i dont. But i dont know. Going. Behind. Us. To go. To my destination magazine is a government indoor city guide which also promotes up and coming some of these figures. From the times when. I. Was. You. Are going. To be. Signing my friend tonight. So my. Time. I. Am not hour and a half hour now to acknowledge our. Like. This whole. Thing. Because it. Was. Cold. Enough. For. I mean i. Do. I wake up feeling more at ease after seeing whats possible in saudi. But just when im starting to feel better about saudi theres news about the missing journalist. Cia directors heard audio recording of interrogation the killing a Saudi Crown Prince battles to contain crisis now they say he didnt he died in a chokehold a stir resisting attempts to return from decidedly his body was then rolled into robin given to the local Corporate Church to dispose of so effectively whats happening is the crown prince is now saying they did do it that he wasnt aware of it and the people that didnt do it will pay for it. Heres a picture of. The son of the deceased meeting. His im so scared. I go for a ride to clear my head which in my case. Closed at the wheel. If im seriously going to consider living here i need to see whether i could meet someone. In their lives since that. Point oh ok no. I dont want any. Of them. Right not to know. I think you know were in form of the type you havent thought he said then when he realized i wanted. To be that way but. I thought. I could never be that someone has to be like. That when i raise the idea of going on a date tells me no way. I called my brother back in the u. K. To get his advice im going to be annoyed by the concept of me going and sitting at a table with another man effectively all course years i have but just like the strangest thing to them like in their ideal world at all those are your old life stories most of the time picks you up with some light pole tricks and these just keep popping going besides next topic so now you get them right why not start the chase that you want so lives great but the end of the day i say go for it because you can do it i wouldnt take any series of life their thoughts on this wherever the consequences are its id reversable was no guilt like guilt here theres nothing to be guilty of letting you know how yet im letting go of letting people die because of this guy the only thing people dont want to be getting ourselves here right ok guys i better go to the bins in the room with a locked door for a while that makes it look like im like. I mean we are in no way tonight to reverse the reversal you did this. On the who know about yourself look at it while you have. Been shut me about from the real. Among the okie. Beside me while the outside world still folks in the case weve decided to go to mecca. Have the same but have a several. You know marry them eat something and they pay to i think the best for their lives that. B. P. Has had a lot to offer a hockey stick and if something happened to me he. Just sat in his innocence it happened to me before hi pete sampras her mom with this. Man helps me into the city to her him. This to purity need to be in the free enter mekka. That have dont ask to hear my side and thats what i did and he did the thing he met with me and he is innocent here sitting. On my feet and almost like hes. For the 1st time in a while i start to think more closely about my relationship with god. Our. Family said that she wanted us to do more together and now i suddenly feel guilty for doing it without her. It. Is. Going to hear me. So i ring it after i get past the mouth. Like. It was it ever. Was. Yes here she is. Living in the moment. Where she was on earlier missed if they should get to this place. And it. Was like as a mom you get as out just. Because. You know that even when im out of my. Life for the longest. Muslims are not allowed to enter mecca so we stopped that just turn back. With me syria i mean it when they. See. Something incredibly moving about being here with thousands of other people. Well he certainly will not be given that kind of money to give to young business and the only thing im just yes and no one that. I dont have strong and even. Which it could be you know like the demise would it not yet because i am weak zinj it will get. I get that you know i think the good in the going to go with it is not. Theres a lot about being muslim that i love and visiting mecca reminded me of that but the way south interprets the rules of assam sometimes feels wrong it scares me that as a woman i wouldnt be totally in control of my own life if i lived here. Im not sure id want to raise a daughter in a country where her male relatives can make her decisions for her. I just recently heard about the case of her half of. A study teenager who fled to thailand escaped her family in saudi alleging abuse. And there are so many other stories like hers. But as i keep finding the sanity nothing is clear cut. Looking for a place to exercise i come across a mixed group of men and women whove been in public. I decided to join the next session but 1st i need to find something to run and. This is your gym is only somewhere to train your. Women have only been able to run in public in the last year so im because most women still wouldnt feel comfortable running with. James. Has designed special sports about this. This was our original color yeah it was. It comes in 2 different ones it comes and orange become a member of the ring and theres an arch. Oh which is more suitable for running or biking. And i tried yeah for sure. Yeah but i. Really like riding this is all i have yet yeah. Its just i wonder if i could literally do whatever youre. I mean because it started making a connection with people like you im working in your area and we see each other from far away its like we both you know i was slow created this this weird yet really connection feeling between people and i think thats the change mist now the saudis changing everyone feels like lets kind of get together and its pretty that these are like hubs of being like were both doing it will be moving forward a little bit but its not constantly why does anything like a few months ago and now its gotten so much better yeah because there are a lot of a lot more girls where we are right now but its like we still need a lot of work. Speaking to jane reminds me that ive already been here a week but i still havent driven a car. Its hard to believe the before june 2018 women would be arrested for attempting to drive. But its reality right hes. Going to try to have a good surface im doing good and i go there and thats what yes hes going to make me and ive been. Into like a part of the water i want to just show up. And its going to be a delicate matter but i tell my aunt that i want to drive a car but look sure that you we went for you right in the 1st time i because here i see youre worried about. Driving rather than being allowed to carry. Everything anything will not be ok well take all our it is no. Big deal for the 1st time to learn find out right if you only have so much right now. So its about keeping up appearances so. Im creating a 5. I was trying to understand the stuff. Im going to think of because i thought if you can get in the history of this lesson for life write on one or 2 years or more write everything that you know that you know i get emotional always need. To write ok thats what im going to write strife. So youre protecting. Its not going to meet one of the 1st im going to want to know your life well you might as well never be as good again because it was only what is going to happen ok so i want everything. Youve been through to do. Was call. Out to the. Whole world what. Doesnt. Get. By. Ive decided to take my chances if im going to live here i need to be able to get around a man. I might even be the 1st british woman to drive in saudi. Our government minder is of the carbon to place when we arrive and hes already decided where he wants me to try and. Push him off the ship shall. I go. Oh. Why was this not so serious official and. What. He. Does it is. Still. A little bit right. Its something different. I havent told them that this is my 1st time driving with an instructor i only got my license 2 weeks before coming. Left afghanistan this therefore theres no as american as you know whats tragic our. Kids pick out. Just. Caution its nice houses look at that its a house is a palace. Is what the people who live here work us to grow these people. Are businessmen and high position like of managed to kill him in. The company. The fixer instructs me as to where he wants me to try. Last crack making you turn. Thats a big statement into there yeah youre right of course i think so are you sure you want me to says you didnt. Know you talked way before now i know you told me before but i dont we dont actually do you turns in the u. K. Theyre a little bit. There i cant really. I need to understand the privilege that i have right now. Where 2 women in the front seat of a car which has only been available to do in this case. In the last 3 i. Only stopped for a minute we asked fix it to get the s. B. From the other car so we can play some music. I mean just her alone with activists who campaigned for the right to trance. On the evening of september 26th. Sat at home in Riyadh Saudi Arabia on her smartphone she was not the only one under god order that shes been with the government in mid summer calls to other womens rights activists and the government effectively wants to take credit they dont want the activists to take credit for they feel like theyre like we as men devotees. Even though theyve been advocating for 3 years. The article goes on to say others are now in prison. Minutes later the me turned sour. Why are you outside you dont need to be outside it turns out the one of our local crew overheard us talking about the imprisoned octopus and immediately reported it to the government minder. The people in charge of the fixers company are furious we didnt look at the. Its crazy but i literally was just reading an article. Because were going to be fighting for the right to drive and i can drive because women are fighting for the right to drive because were going to fall for the rights drive now i can drive. It in the car for a 2nd just because. Shes business and stop going to speak to me completely. Shes like the snobs and since nobody said it was im going to destroy the truck. I dont use them. And why should i care about activists the only reason women can drive is because the things about it. Strike. Control is. To drive us back home and tell us not to film inside the house or the content the government and react. Im not going to sit here. And wait. What i wouldnt give to be. Everywhere yet i was go