A reach out to those woman back home put downs by their duties and social rules and informed them of old dead basic rights my name is the amount of the home and i wore them. Then paris has lost his child is thought to halle died just before she was born its a very very difficult 6 oclock phrase and i didnt know you i didnt know what feelings i was having it just happened it was the worst thing ive ever. Felt. Dennis finding solace in his sons united Football Team all of the players playing alongside him and kent in southern england have lost the baby. For everyone here football is a lifeline. Becoming a father was a dream come true for them paris he had a good job as a Customer Service manager with a phone company and a happy relationship. Everything was going to plan for him and his partner lottie. But just before joe t. Was supposed to give birth the baby stopped moving. She was quite an active go yeah. Bit like a dad. And she just there was lack of movement she went in one day i have some tests just to hook her up some machines find out where the hostel based and she was she was fine 2 days later she we went in because we found im a friend. And theyre hard to stop eating if they dont take a man and confirmed and on ultrasound there was no hot date than just fell to flow and can believe it and. Swallow. And that will stay with me forever and i think is wow like he just kind of think in a minute instead that over sudden everything changes that his feet in order to overcome the shock dad and his partner were advised to spend time with a dead baby to hold her in their arms. Today hell is part of their everyday lives there is no grey for her the parents keep her ashes at home so shes always with them. In the beginning it was very hard for them to talk about his feelings thats. Like most men not saying all but most he had to be the man and look after the woman and you know i was a mess i was awful. Even though i was hurting how shocking it was i was doing everything i could in my head in my mind to look after. My partner it was about 6 months later. He started getting better. Not so much i would say better she started to cope with that and then in my head it just as if my balls just suddenly broke down and i just couldnt but i know i just couldnt tie care. Dan felt helpless he didnt have the strength to go to work. I couldnt explain why it was happening because i saw i grieved with my partner but then apparently i had a. And that took quite a lot to come back from. Dan struggled with panic attacks and depression. Now hes feeling better thanks also to the support of his Football Team suns united. They now have teams in the whole of the u. K. More than placing defense he never misses the week he training session. For. Everybody here feels the same as me and if i need to talk i can but other than not its a select i just released my energy on the pitch now as im around a bunch of lads that will cost me 3 seconds and and it is a family his novel to take his family like. Many other players the sons united have also experienced miscarriages some of them are no fathers but others have no idea whether they will ever hold that child in their office. Will want to know what theyre playing football for halle or york for macy and for freddie. Playing football for their dead babies. Of their own is it is. Of ok to cry its a quite a feel down. It doesnt make you less of a man it doesnt make you less of a person nothing but love for me so i wear for a 2nd family room. Everyones confess im high and where is close is a family a baby improperly it we were very upset and surprised that some people didnt dont even recognize the fact that weve had a loss or 2 or think that because they couldnt see it it didnt exist of. And i suppose with with this group i think. We recognize that you become a parent as soon as you find out that youre having a baby or even maybe before that. Sometimes the men talk about their loss even while theyre in the middle of training. Other times it just called for the support. Ive always been a very outgoing person ive never been afraid to be around people to do anything. Like share my feelings or say things like that and then when this happened i just i couldnt i can be around people i felt very on edge in the light his past and i didnt i even being sometimes around like my big group of friends i found it hard. Than has been a musician for years. He sings in a cover band and they perform at weddings and birthday parties. Care that. Luis the guitarist is one of dans oldest friends but talking to his friend about the loss of a spade he was not easy for lewis. It was hard to get like really hard to begin with personally and quiet like a silent person so i think the best way i dealt with it with dan was. Kind of acknowledge it. Ask him if he needs any think and really leave it there until he says something to me because this last lost me would be doing is trying to constantly nag but bring up. Playing football than can choose to open up or just enjoy the game. For the last few months the team has been playing in the 2nd division theres a game every sunday that is always that. Before every game there is a minute of silence in commemoration of the last babies. Seriously this is also i struck. Out he got. So far the sens united thats never won a game but today feeling hopeful. Of a season sound awful as i play football. For numerous years so we still find a referee but i thought it was coming a little think these guys get in there. Which means our offense so us 100 percent this is all about what we can walk into i mean you say oh they say stifle brains he gets us a long time and yet were here for a different race and we dont football should we dont want to win the game as well. The whole team usually comes when theres a game to support the players some bring their families along. Many dont talk about it i dont think i think like i kind of close up i quite quiet about these sorts of things whereas the women do tend to have a lot more support because theyre the ones of physically going through it we dont mind going and i was out there in the room sometimes side guys thanks just dont want to do that so its different support thing and have you seen a change in your partner somewhere oh massively yeah massively was much happier. For dad the games are also an opportunity to be around children were. Right from. The start you do just feel when you see babies and children and i thought i should have this i should have my child and my arms. And it was just a lot to take he just felt it was building up inside to reza said over time its not so much that your happy and comfortable with it but you just learn to deal you learn to get your iron coping mechanisms. Ive got rice on there ways her name on it and i says its a day about this is daddy and holly. And i dont even know sometimes but. Somebody picked up on it the occasionally ill just i will kiss my wrist. Doesnt even clock sued in my brain sometimes ive even done it. To see that several other players were able to have children even after several miscarriages stand hope that one day he too would have his own family. Today everything is going well for the 1st time since joining the 2nd division sans united all winning 42. 00. Its uplifting for the players. Well i would probably just be sour hard a wreck without these guys i feel closer to the state i dont them a lot of close up so i know it just because i know that we will take you same journey together were all going through the same emotional raga times so you know if someones having a bad day it. Was more that we all are there always a risk right call. All the while the rest just sit in the backgrounds but everybody noticed that were there for each other. And thats the most important thing for sans united much more important than winning a football game. It controls our body could it soon operate our computers to. The brain the most fascinating borg him in the human body. Why remembering is hard work how software can read our thoughts and how the chaos in the brain can transform it into creativity the journey through the cosmos above our heads is tomorrow today. Next on d w. Grab a problem and off you go. 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