About a. Country thats not. So you dont want. To. Go. As far as society is concerned we dont exist were sort of invisible many people dont even know what this is. Is intersexual neither male nor female when he was young he had surgery to make him a girl the doctors had advised his parents to raise him to be a woman but he feels like a man and he wants to know exactly what happened back then and why. Because dans gender isnt clearly defined but he wants to be seen as a man he works out at a Fitness Studio almost every day. So his flames can i use the but if i miss you look at going to. The surgical reconstruction to make the girl made his selfesteem plummet. In this regard this is the fitness means so much to me because for a long time until puberty actually i hated myself i never accepted myself and it was only with the help of weight training and fitness that i learned to love myself. Now its like an addiction i really enjoy. It have a. As a kid i had so many idols i saw Arnold Schwarzenegger in a magazine and all the movie stars so Bester Stallone and so on. I was totally fascinated by their a static in all their muscles and i thought to myself hey id like that for myself just imagine getting bullied teased and even beaten as a child you lose respect for yourself. So that this will give us a one on like that up to a certain age ive been doing this for 6 years now 4 years consistently and its really taken a long time im no Arnold Schwarzenegger but my lifes dream would be to compete on stage one day. 3 minutes and be. This from the ones out there for i think we need to deal with this whole topic more openly and easily there are only strictly males or females there are also many stages in between there are different chromosomal nuances i guess you could call it where its not just x. X. Or an x. Y. Chromosome people need to see that nature didnt limit itself to those too. Christiane carries the male x. Y. Chromosomes but when he was born his gender wasnt clearly identifiable no penis. The doctors adapted his external anatomy to the female gender now he lives as a man and likes to ride his motorcycle. Its almost like flying its pure freedom like i cant describe the feeling its nothing like driving a car when youre boxed in and you really feel totally free its like freedom on 2 wheels. As a mom to me my motorcycle is like a woman were practically married or engaged to be precise. Her name is bettina and shes in my favorite colors red and black i love her and she loves me. Yes it is very sure id love to have a proper family with a wife and kids and grandkids and everything that goes along with it who wouldnt like to see a mini version of themselves. But sadly i cant because of that operation back then that really makes me furious they destroyed my life. But why thats what christiane wants to know why did the doctors turn him into a girl when he was only one year old he calls the surgeon who performed the operation hello hi this is mr moldovan asking for a doctor. I used to be a patient of hers. And id like to make an appointment with her to talk. To stan lives with his parents near stock got this is the 1st time in 28 years theyve ever talked about what really happened back then when he was born. Of the frog his mama wants to know if it was a boy or a girl and the doctor just said we dont know and i said what do you mean you dont know that cant be he said they couldnt tell yet it could be one or the other it could be a boy because he has male sex organs but it could be a girl because the organs are not external they just didnt know theyd have to have the baby examine further. Than the their bodies have been missing for so long on the wires that. You were such a handsome little boy and to be honest im so sorry it pains me to this day that i gave my consent if only our doctor had said leave the boy the way he is but i consented they cut you up its my fault and ill take that to the grave im sorry about it now the doctor promised us you grew up to be a happy girl. She guaranteed it. Made you think that was god and really you know want done it and then when you were 13 we discovered what they told us in the reports wasnt right at all. But they were the ones who had operated or you could have known all i could see was what theyd written down the reports at a vagina was present but no. Later they realized it was the prostate gland not a vagina. Now imagine i consented to what else they wanted to do they wanted to expand the vagina with this device if theyd done that with your you rethrow you might have been dead by now. When he was just a year old christiane was operated on by a doctor in to bring in now she works annoy him as if. Im going to the clinic and its actually a childrens clinic but thats where the doctor who operated on me works the one who messed up my life. Who. I want to confront her and try to find out why she did that back there. Why she operated on me and maybe shell be able to answer a few other questions too. In germany doctors perform about 700. 00 cosmetic operations per year on children sexual organs often one child has to undergo several procedures so the actual number of children affected is unknown. I hope im able to make peace with myself to some extent and that i dont lose my cool when i facing her. I just wish shed apologize for what shes done. That would be the very least. We werent allowed to film the conversation between christiane and his former doctor for quote various reasons we were told the surgeon also refused to respond to the questions we submitted in writing after 2 hours christiane reemerges from the clinic. Not happy at all with the way the conversation went i didnt feel comfortable and she didnt really answer all my questions especially not the question why. All she said was things like well thats just how things were back then or thats how we practiced medicine back then we couldnt do anything about it. But that just sounds like an excuse to me. It doesnt justify her actions against me at that time. But one good thing was that she at least apologized to me i thought that was great. On this one i would have thought shed apologize to me just like that but she remained very professional and cool to both of us she didnt respond emotionally. And she did say she could relate to my situation but for me personally that didnt really come across it was only. When he was 14 himself decided to have his understand the testes removed so he could feel more like a real girl that was 3 years after his father had told him he was intersexual. Why didnt you tell me that earlier i always told you that i sensed something wasnt right with me but i was different why didnt you tell me earlier. Just because they told us to raise you was a girl we didnt know how so we just tried our best smidgens with c. N. N. We didnt want to confront you with those thoughts or make you sad but it was pretty hard on your brother he was embarrassed to explain to his friends the way things really were. His friends would have just lost the 10 it was hard on him too. Thats how it was for me too yes it was hard i kept asking myself what my classmates would say thats why i chose to have my testicles cut out i didnt want to stand out i just wanted to be normal and fit in and i thought id fit in if i just stuck with the identity of the doctors had assigned to me back then. Yes is that when its your life. You have to think positively others have it much harder. I almost jumped off the bridge back then in 7th grade. I just couldnt go on weve always had our problems been sad had our fights president thought we could tell that you werent developing like a real girl. Your problem was you didnt tell any of the family it was a taboo and we were ashamed that we were ashamed period. So you were ashamed of me of the way i am not off you we were ashamed that we wanted to protect you because in your world your society that was unhealthy so that if i did our day you just didnt talk about those things the way you do today about everything i didnt want them to make fun of you. And they did anyway whether they knew about it or not they made fun of me anyway and they hit me they teased me and they humiliated me yes that was a mistake. I just bottled up inside and didnt say anything and that made things even worse and we made a mistake and if you had said anything at that time but they were always people who would have understood you not just today back then too back then too but we were wrong are you blaming me and your mother for the decisions we made back then. When i was younger i did i couldnt stop asking myself why you would make that decision as i got older i realized it hurts you as much as it hurts me and pointing the finger doesnt get us anywhere it just breeds more resentment i know you couldve helped if anyone is to blame its the doctors but i dont blame you anymore. d german voices. South african gray. In the Beethoven Fest 29 teams campus project. 2 worlds are united time music. Corkers rivers of scenery and nitrates leaching into the ground water. Agriculture in germany. Is this really what you want. Who represents the peoples interests at Committee Meetings and true is actually pulling the strings. 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