because i really have seen this from all sides, this is a moment most people don't even remember or recognize, but my husband in 1994 was the key vote, was the person -- what way he i went determined what happened on that crime bill in 1994 where assault weapons were banned, magazine sizes changed. he had such serious death threats that he had to have police cheprotection for severa months. most of the time i talk about guns, the speeches i give are from my heart and pretty spontaneous. you can't believe the hate mail, death threats every time i do something strongly. i think there are people out there that are like very afraid of losing their guns. they believe in the second amendment, and i think they threaten people and i think those threats leave some people uncomfortable. but sometimes you got to just -- up got to have a moral conscious and stand up for what's right. and right before john died, when