he nu-knew you want it to happe. >> yeah, there is no way. >> i don't want to say i was screaming or anything of that nature but i was terrified and i was telling him to stop, please stop. >> did he? >> no. he did not stop. he had no intention of stopping. that's what he wanted and that's what he got. >> when you left there you never went back. >> no, i never went back. i was terrified. i was really scared. >> and you left school. >> did you leave school because it was in the same neighborhood. >> because it was so close. >> in your mind, did you use the word rape? did you recognize it then? >> no. i don't think i did. >> i just thought like you know it is my fault, i was obligated -- that's what you are