talk about in the book and in the new book "sea stares" are a lot about what referendum and i was fortunate in my career to be around some remarkable men and women who shaped the operations that i talk about in the book after 9/11 and who i was just honored to serve with. and so you're right, you can't teach courage, but i think you can watch courageous men and women in action and learn from that. >> let's talk about another part of your biography that i found fascinating. we have a lot of business leaders that watch, a lot of people in politics and a lot of americans watching that can learn from your story. it wasn't always easy for you. of course you had a terrible