front of me and my sister. he shot himself in the mouth. i actually remember picking off brain fragments and i remember the smell of blood. that's the first actual vivid memory as a child that i have. >> sometimes when inmates tell our crews stories from their past, we can't always immediately confirm that every detail is true or accurate. in desiree's case we did a little research later and found some newspaper articles from 1979, and they did confirm that her stepfather did shoot her mother in the leg and killed himself shortly after police were called. but according to those newspaper articles, he had actually gone out into a field. there was no mention that he did any of this in front of his children. but we just can't know that for certain. >> now 37 years old, stalbird says her 20-year-long battle with drugs has put her in a revolving-door relationship with