work, the money, preparation that goes into this dream -- >> the pressure. >> so much pressure. and so i'm in makeup and there is a large back stage area and there is a secluded part for hair and makeup, lots of security to make sure nobody messes with us. i'm in hair and makeup with hot rollers in my hair and nothing but a robe on. and he comes waltzing in, and not like a are you nervous, how are you doing, not that. which that also would have been weird, but it wasn't -- it was no sort of camaraderie. it was just a, i own you. you're my property, and i just want to check things out. and i was just like, what? and then he walked into the dressing room. there's only one entrance in and