>> when you go to court, what is going to happen? you going to testify? >> if they ask me to testify and all that, i'm still thinking. because i don't want to try to bring the next person down just to get myself up. because i'm not that type of person. but at the end of the day, you have to do what's best for you. i have to think about my son, what's best for me and what's best for him. it is like a choice. i have to choose my codefendant or have to choose my son. >> because of the jail's policy of the non contact visits smith hasn't been able to touch her four-year-old son in the three years she's been at the jail. but it's been regular visits from him and her mother that's kept her motivated. >> it's tough to see him growing up. kids change. their features and everything change. he was here last week and he asked me why am i in jail. i just told him the bad people arrested me and brought me here.