that's how i was. >> eventually she joined the bible study and found the connection with several of the other participants. they too killed their husbands or boyfriends. >> it helps me knowing that i have sisters i can lean on, someone i can talk to, someone i can share these things with because in here you got to be careful who you share things with. >> coming up on "lock up raw." >> i hate to say it but murder is a respected crime here. >> i shot him three times and the other police was still down so i shot. he gets a lot of compliments.