sort of a feeling, and it happened just every so often and after attacks by neighborhood kids. >> the question is, why does a father murder in his dreams and a son murder in real life? >> in real life. >> in mentioning these things and writing about them in your book, you seem to believe that you may have passed on some kind of genetic propensity for obsession or destructive behavior. that might be one factor in this puzzle of why your son did what he did. >> it's something to be considered you know in the broad spectrum of possibilities. the problem with just calling it genetic predisposition or genetic predestinarianism is that it's not really a --