parishioners on saturday night, but the pastor was not there. >> their son matthew died earlier this week and they are facing that together, walking through that together. >> 27-year-old matthew warren shot himself friday. in a letter to saddleback members, rick and his wife kay wrote about their son, he was an incredible kind and compassionate man, but only those closest know that he struggled with mental health from birth. dark holes of depression and dark thoughts. in spite of counselors and prayers for healing, the torture of mental illness never subsided. >> pastor warren is using this opportunity to say, hey, we can do the best we can do and still fail. >> it's a trademark quality of warren's delivering down to earth ministry. his new york best seller, "the