i'll just walk away. i've tried so hard to just calm myself. i don't want to get in a fight and get new charges and hit the wall and break my hand like these retards like dumb ass girls, seriously stupid. you're going to hit a brick wall? really? >> smell it. >> i don't want to smell it. >> though styx has not been in jail long reality is starting to sink in. >> i'm just scared. i'm scared to death. it's like i sound so stupid. i just want my mom. i feel like i'm a little girl again. all there is to do in here is to think. think about why you're here, what you did wrong, you know what i mean? that's all there is to do. i can't sleep. i'm up all night long, all day long. and that's the worst feeling in the world is just being here all by yourself like completely alone. like yeah. there's 120 other girls but i don't know them.