you know you're very anxious and nervous for a whole day you don't know what's going to happen but they're thinking i'm on the music and finally at eight o'clock you're gone on stage and then. the time to really go and i i don't know brother is on sometimes radio is exciting sometimes like mrs naaman ohio wanting to go bad but how did that have been so it's really not in my home for once i'm on stage i should say that there for once i'm on stage i should be in control but you never know until you're touch a keyboard and you know have the first phrase coming out and then sometimes it's like oh i know this piece i feel whole and everything goes great or sometimes maybe because a piano is not exactly or was a warm up completely i go in there and everything feels strange.