on -- what's this, a thursday night. >> mm-hmm. >> and also to answer this question that we've been trying to answer the whole time is how can we live in a land that's been made to kill us? we've been told a great deal of our people's strategies of respectability and assimilation. we've not been told enough about their strategies of flight, embodied so beautiful in toni morrison's song of solomon, which you probably have read. so i wanted to -- >> hold on. you did that in your piece. you talked about seeing alvin -- >> revelations. >> that's right. but we digress. >> we can talk about it. >> okay. but go on. >> so you think about what in good tar tell's milkman when a fly got to let go of all that stuff that weighs you down. so i think right now when you say where are we going to go from here, i hope this piece helps us let go of all that stuff that weighs us down and