>> you get this guilt like, oh, which baby do i go to, and how do i do it? it's an odd change. jadon! >> and also remember her 3-year-old, aza, has not been allowed in intensive care, and nicole hasn't left since the surgery three weeks ago. finally she feels confident enough to leave. >> i was like, all right. we're going to go to dinner. and we had a great time at dinner. >> until a message from the hospital. >> it's like one of my worst moments, i swear. >> it's not anias this time, but jadon. he's having a massive seizure. they're trying desperately to get it under control. >> your earth sattehatters, and feel the worst guilt for leaving them because who was holding his