difference, even for the control room. >> they put me in here several times to calm down. >> does it work? >> it takes away from your personal time. >> would they move you, carry you in there? >> if you get physical in any way, won't walk, they will escort you down. >> that happened to you? >> that happened to me. >> all of the kids endured abuse. the state homes that led to state care are fresh. >> i would be sexual assaulted and abused for her to get, you know, a nick or whatever, she was trying to score. >> how old were you when that was happening? >> when it first started happening, i was 6 years old. when i go to sleep at night, i have bad dreams about it. i still think about it and stuff like that. there's no way you can try to get rid of that image. someone being sexual assaulted is going to follow them from that day on.