tried to get me, i jumped out of the car, and i went on sunset and bob who will be out later, i gave him the slip. when you're using drugs, you get small victories like, i avoided bob. i felt like a hero, like i did something special. anyway, when i -- i was so used -- i thought everyone in my life -- let me make this clear. i thought i could come back, but i always did think i could come back, but the previous year to me going to treatment, the addiction had become -- i didn't even like it anymore, but i could not stop doing it. i didn't enjoy what it did to me. >> larry: it didn't give you a high. >> i couldn't get high. i would get something. >> larry: what was it then? >> i'm an addict. i can't describe it to you. if i didn't do it, i couldn't do anything, i couldn't get out of