so throughout the whole entire, you know, event, tragedy, there wasn't a point that i really, you know, there was little things, me going in the water that i don't definitely remember or, you know -- >> larry: i understand you thought about your mother a lot, right? >> absolutely. >> larry: nick, i understand you have a tattoo to commemorate your lost friends. can you show it to us? what does it say? >> yes. it has the guys' initials, and it has the date of the event, 03/01/09, with a rope, with an anchor, of course. it says "in the hour of adversity, be not without hope." >> larry: why did you do that? >> you know, there's not a day that goes by that i don't think about this, and this is just another way to kind of, for me, you know, put things into perspective always. without those three guys and the things we did on that boat, i wouldn't be having this conversation, once again, with you. >> larry: there were rumors back on land there were fighting and