Many, including me, react to the words “him” and “God.” In the rooms, when people say they have trouble with the concept of God, we suggest Good Orderly Direction. Often times it is heard “do the next right thing” and that would then be doing God’s will. Turning our will over to anything is difficult for a society that values absolute personal control. Letting go absolutely is hard, especially for addicts who value control. For me, I check in with my body on a regular basis and find I am often uptight and tense. My muscles are retracted, like a cat waiting to pounce for no reason at all. Try it some time. Check in mindfully and see if your muscles are tense or relaxed. You might be surprised.