I get a lot of podcast recommendations from my friends who work in public radio. Sometimes the recommendation comes as a texted link to a specific episode, other times as a series binge on a long drive.
People who have been traumatized, especially children, often end up not hating the people who traumatized them but rather identifying with and defending them.
What makes psychosis confusing is that an eruption of infant trauma is expressing itself through the lens, the body, and the voice of someone who is now an adult.