this was. and to think about my daughter. and then the radio suddenly stopped moving. and the noise stopped. and i wasn t dead. i could see. and i could hear. and i could move my hands and my arms worked. i wasn t dead. i was lucky to be alive. that cliche, lucky to be alive, was suddenly so true to me, so profound. it was such a warm feeling. we should all feel it all the time but a lot of us don t, until we get this close to the end. i had a couple of near-death experiences in my teens and 20s. a motorcycle, that kind of thing. but i was too young to learn the lesson. but at 7:45 p.m. on april 12th, 2014, i finally got it. lucky to be alive. i felt so lucky to be alive that if you told me then that i just lost a leg, i would have said, that s okay. i m lucky to be alive.
just kept moving closer and closer and closer to me. and i had what felt like a very long time to think about dying and what a stupid way to die this was. and to think about my daughter. and then the radio suddenly stopped moving. and the noise stopped. and i wasn t dead. i could see. and i could hear. and i could move my hands and my arms worked. i wasn t dead. i was lucky to be alive. that cliche, lucky to be alive, was suddenly so true to me, so profound. it was such a warm feeling. we should all feel it all the time but a lot of us don t, until we get this close to the end. i had a couple of near-death experiences in my teens and 20s. a motorcycle, that kind of thing. but i was too young to learn the lesson. but at 7:45 p.m. on april 12th, 2014, i finally got it.
was impossible. the walls were thick concrete, and the old man always locked the dungeon steel doors behind him. reality just hit me like a ton of bricks. like, oh, my god. you know, even if i knock this guy out, i can t open this door. there s no way out? no, there was no way out. just as kirsten had ten years before, jennifer says she only saw the old man once a day, when he gave her one meal and demanded sex. so i just gave up, basically, and just laid there and let him do his business. just let him get it over with. jennifer says the old man also told her she had to record on a calendar every time she bathed and every time they had sex. when jennifer asked for permission to write her family and let them know she wasn t dead, jennifer says the old man agreed to bring her pen and paper on one condition.
ground. perhaps we can google the primary candidates. is this in part because most reporters take their cues from the political establishment which didn t see this coming? and there were no media polls. we love to have polls to tell us who s in trouble. no polls, somebody must not be in trouble. if a poll didn t you d be hearing something. something would be bubbling up, somebody else in the district would be saying something s off. they would be telling the reporters that. maybe they were telling the reporters that and they were dismissing it. i think mary katherine hit on it, it became a media narrative. which i never bought. even when i pushed back against it, i was treated like i was crazy. is the tea party dead? the two people who get the most attention right now in the republican party are ted cruz and rand paul. the tea party obviously wasn t dead. definitely, we won t treat
ground. perhaps we can google the primary candidates. is this in part because most reporters take their cues from the political establishment which didn t see this coming? and there were no media polls. we love to have polls to tell us who s in trouble. no polls, somebody must not be in trouble. if a poll didn t you d be hearing something. something would be bubbling up, somebody else in the district would be saying something s off. they would be telling the reporters that. maybe they were telling the reporters that and they were dismissing it. i think mary katherine hit on it, it became a media narrative. which i never bought. even when i pushed back against it, i was treated like i was crazy. is the tea party dead? the two people who get the most attention right now in the republican party are ted cruz and rand paul. the tea party obviously wasn t dead. definitely, we won t treat you like you re crazy this