this is the result ofdecades of believing your ownhype and not wanting to confront theugliness that was always there. but you chose tolook the other way. jackie: it was soearth shattering. i believed, for the mostpart that everybody was living happily together in teaneck. but it wasn t the utopia that ithought it was, for many people. (protestors chanting) (broken glass shattering) r: boarded up businessesand broken glass, smashed by hundredsof young people, angry over the police killing of phillip pannellon tuesday night. natacha: i was like,what does this have to do with my brother sdeath, you know? and i was kind ofupset in a sense, because that s not how he was. you know, that like all ofthis happened to my brother. and then on top of that,all this violence and stuff.