beat. you re working with dogs now. i retired an left my job. i was having some issues. i have a purpose now. getting the va rehab trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my life. some days i m winning. some days i m losing pm some days make we want to run and jump off that balcony and take off. some days i m still sitting here. the ptsd is the hard one. people look at me and it s like you re a big guy, there s nothing wrong with you. i m fighting war inside my head all the time. so many of us are coming home with ptsd, it s pretty normal. you re a normal person having a normal reaction to a very abnormal situation. it s not something wrong with