to uc berkeley. and overnight as a young kid i had two parents in jail. i had to take care of my two grandparents, find money to survive. overnight i had a foot in the american dream by going to urgs c berkeley and a foot in the american nightmare. and basically what the model of my narrative so toxic, so disgusting, takes away all our misery we re supposed to smile with our white teeth and don t tell anyone, what will people say. and if you do that and don t complain and you re invisible you may be, alicia, you might be the token who gets on the college brochure. what that does is it blinds us, makes us invisible, sidekicks to our own narrative. we don t tell the truth, tell fiction. and all the problems that exist in america we just render it