and it s been really significant spiritual journey that i was guided on. and there were times of total fear and loss, and wanting to give up. and it did come down to life and death. and i had to choose. i chose life. i wasn t going to take the easy way out. even though that meant more suffering and pain for myself. but this is just like a tiny little blip of my story and my life. joined by two of the men who helped rescue chris ber quist and troy helmer. congratulations on the fantastic rescue. chris, i know you coordinated the search. amanda out there 17 days such a long time at any point did you lose hope you would find her alive. not at all. nope. not a chance. no. talk to me about the challenges