and at the end of the day my first two books caused them a lot of pain. it s also me trying to be this outrages. it was too forced and this book i hold up as like this is who i am. i told you my dad wrote ea book. in 1976, they restored it, put it online and sent him an email and said you can listen to this. and i clicked on it in my office and it was the fist time i d heard my dad s voigs since i was 10 years old. i couldn t remember what he sounded like. for your daughters and your grand kids and great grand kids, to be able to hear your voice on the radio, that s an extraordinary thing. it really isx troed nar. and i dont know eif i ve allowed