his word and the hope we have for him and go together with it as a family. reporter: he died to a gunshot wound to the head in what his father described at a final act of despair. he struggled with depression all his life. tom hole day, an as tap the pastor serving the orange county congregation is warren s brother-in-law. he had taken over here when warren was stricken with pneumonia easter weekend. the church, as well as his friends, describe matthew as kind, gentle and compassionate with a sweet spirit. there are days when he was just this bubbly, outgoing, you know, effervescent, reaching out to people, and there were the days when he just didn t want to be around people, you know, just the pain, excruciating pain was just too much. it was during one of those moment that he took his own life. in a letter to church members and other letters, pastor warren