this is no place to be. amelia s delivery was dangerously premature. she had to be airlifted to a hospital capable of providing adequate care to her new family. but soon after difficulting the triplets, amelia was given traumatizing news. i m very grateful, because from the triplets, two of my children are still living. and my son, unfortunately, passed away. which was really hard. because, you know, i couldn t be there for him like i should have been. the hardest thing was to lose my son, and, you know, just being away from my children, period. it s, like, really tearing me up inside, because, you know, i never wanted to be i feel like i m the worst mother. this is not my home here. i m not calling this my home.