it just does not seem like it s even possible. there is no words. it s shear terror and a sense of immood i can t tell urgency and, you know, to get to your child and to be there to protect them. i got an emergency phone call that there had been a shooting but they didn t say where. and that the schools were on lockdown. i got an text a.p. shooting at the school sandy hook. i thought oh my god. i went to the school there were some historical moms that i knew and i said what s going on? she said the principal is dead and that children came out with blood. we re coping. we re still trying to find out, you know, what s going