Starting december tenth d. W. Im standing in the arizona desert feeling somewhat lost before any Superstition Mountain land that is sacred to the native american apache trying. My search seems to have come to an end. There are no apaches to be found here only mountain lions will i be torn to bits by mountain lines before i find the answer i see. It all began at the family plot in a cemetery in lugano switzerland ever since i was a boy ive always imagined my name would one day be chiseled on the gravestone beneath those of my ancestors something i was never particularly enthusiastic about. A few weeks ago my grandfather died in this nursing on he had a zest for life and arise sense of humor. In his final years he could hardly hear the news site was poor it seemed as though he was withdrawing from the world and. I wondered to myself if such a life is worth living the idea of dying in a nursing home frightens me. But the idea that anyone or anything could outlive me seems equally ridiculo