katie: i know that you say you felt skeptical about the flds community even as a little girl. when did you start feeling that abuse helped abuse helped with. my maternal grandmother believed in the group and she taught me to believe in myself as a person, and it wasn t based on who owned me. to that was a taboo teaching a family. so that self worth that my grandmother instilled in me made me question. and the questions never stopped. katie: you say the abuse helped, and obviously i m sure that opened your eyes. your father molested you when you were just 8 years old. that s the first memory i have of being molested. katie: do you think it happened before that? it could. it may, it may not have. there is a historical prevalance of abuse, sexual abuse within the community. katie: you were raped by your