confront him and tell him what i know. it hurts too much for me to say it out loud, for me to tell my dad i know what he did and that i hate what he did. but he s still my father. i will always love him. her mother loved him, too. loved him through infidelity and trouble. loved him always. even as she loved her children, her family. as she tried her best to make life good while he plotted to kill her. a couple of years earlier, you had a great, full, lovely family life. there s not a word you can use to describe what our family has been through in the last four years. it s been it s been a very difficult four years. you have such a nice sunny disposition. how do you do that? i get my strength from my mother.