so it was institutionalized in his fantasy. so what happens? you become numb, numbing. and death becomes part of his life and then death, death and life are all mixed up in his mind. and in his mind, ross method of killing made him feel more alive. serial killers like to strangle their victims. and that is i guess the most common form of killing because there s more of a connection there. it s more real, and it s not as quick. i don t think i would have got anywhere near the amount of, damn it, i don t know how to describe it. i want to say pleasure or excitement. i don t know really how to describe what i was feeling at the time, but i don t think i would have got the same thing out of it if i had like shot someone or if i just stabbed them. when i was younger, i started out with fantasies that were very, well, they weren t violent. i don t know how normal they