seance s, and sometimes with the family and gabriel. i don t know if they were real, or not real. it seemed real. she was speaking invoices and things? she was very in touch with a spirit. an ancient spirit. named oceana. she found some piece in that. and one day she said let s hold hands and speak with oceana. i just remember her transforming into this character. this different self. and it was a surprise to me. i did know she did this. she was a completely different person. she wasn t responding in the way my mother usually does. so everybody was looking for when the, said gabriel. when really, maybe they should have been looking for one of the shauna s. i think that she had the capacity to pick up and go. she might have reached that breaking point where she just thought, or she just didn t think. she just left. then one day, after months