phillip because she knew he was too far away to do anything and knew she would only panic him. back in north carolina all phillip could do was wait. it was 6:00 a.m. and news of the attack hadn t hit the u.s. yet. i m trying to imagine the feeling of getting that phone call and being so far away. helplessness is a pretty accurate word. you know there s nothing that you can do. i was so worried that the girls would just be screaming uncontr uncontr uncontrolably panicking and drawing attention. exactly what catherine was trying to prevent the girls from doing. i kept telling them to stay little and stay very quite and the lady with portia kept patting her and soothing her and gigi was curled up in a little ball. her breathing was so quite and so shallow. i kept rubbing her back and touching her because i was like maybe she s hurt and i don t