It was simply impossible to go back there, because she probably wouldnt have cared anyway if they hadnt started treating her, she wouldnt have understood what she was doing wrong, she also smacked her lips i asked if everything was okay, yes everything was fine, she apparently thought it was strange that i took me like that, kissed her like that, said that i loved her everything, probably just. She was sick, so it was also somehow strange she probably wanted the best for herself, mommy, we called on you, we dont hold you back, we love you very much, no matter what you are. David, im sorry, but you forgave your mother for such a spoiled childhood, for health problems, of course, she beat me and very hard, but she just loved us in her own way, and wanted to lie to us in this world, didnt want to stay alone, but i forgave her. This is very, very important, it seems to me, in order to move forward, learn to forgive, let go of the situation, this seems to me to be a big step on your part, v