few weeks earlier she described as stupid. i don t want to hit the wall and break my hand like these retards, like dumb ass girls. like seriously stupid. you re going to hit the wall, really? you re going to hit a brick wall? i tried calming myself down. i just i couldn t. and i finally just hit the wall like an idiot. i could be helping my family right now financially. i could be being a mom. but, instead, i m here. i feel so guilty and i feel so helpless. just everything combined, i had it. i snapped. later, styx expressed her anger to molina in a letter. she s pretty pissed off. she wrote a messed-up letter that started off, it said, hey, ho, what s i put in the letter something like, you were my first, but you won t be my last. and i put, but i guess that s something that you re going to have to live with when you see me with another woman, knowing that should have, could have been you. i just, i was i said a lot of mean things.
myself. i don t want to [ bleep ]. i don t want to get in a fight. i don t want to get new charges. i don t want to hit the wall and break my hand like these retards, these dumbass girls, seriously stupid. you re going to hit the wall, really? you re going to hit a brick wall? smell the cloth. i don t want to smell it. though styx has not been in jail long, reality is starting to sink in. i m just scared. i m just scared to death. it s like, it sounds so stupid. i just want my mom. like i feel like i m a little girl again. all there is to do in here is to think. think about why you re here. what you did wrong. you know what i mean? that s all there is to do. i can t sleep. i m up all night long, all day long. that s the worst feeling in the world, is just being here all by yourself. like completely alone. like, yeah, there s 120 other girls, but i don t know them. they re just people that are here.
as stupid. i don t want to hit the wall and break my hand like these retards, like dumb ass girls. like seriously stupid. you re going to hit the wall, really? you re going to hit a brick wall? i tried calming myself down. i just i couldn t. and i finally just hit the wall like an idiot. i could be helping my family right now financially. i could be being a mom. but, instead, i m here. i feel so guilty and i feel so helpless. just everything combined, i had it. i snapped. later, styx expressed her anger to molina in a letter. she s pretty pissed off. she wrote a messed-up letter that started off, it said, hey, ho, what s i put in the letter something like, you were my first, but you won t be my last. and i put, but i guess that s something that you re going to have to live with when you see me with another woman, knowing that should have, could have been you. i just, i was i said a lot of mean things.
like i ll just walk away, you know? i tried so hard to just hold myself. i don t want to [ bleep ]. i don t want to get in a fight. i don t want to get new charges. i don t want to hit the wall and break my hand like these retards, these dumbass girls, seriously stupid. you re going to hit the wall, really? you re going to hit a brick wall? smell the cloth. i don t want to smell it. though styx has not been in jail long, reality is starting to sink in. i m just scared. i m just scared to death. it s like, it sounds so stupid. i just want my mom. like i feel like i m a little girl again. all there is to do in here is to think. think about why you re here. what you did wrong. you know what i mean? that s all there is to do. i can t sleep. i m up all night long, all day long. that s the worst feeling in the world, is just being here all by yourself. like completely alone. like, yeah, there s 120 other
i ve been flirting a lot. molina rekindled a relationship with another inmate who s also about to leave for prison. so good to see her. she s in max, you know? she s looking at 25 to life. so it s probably the only time i m going to see her. and it didn t take long for word of molina s infidelity to get back to styx, who reacted by doing the one thing that only a few weeks earlier she described as stupid. i don t want to hit the wall and break my hand like these retards, like dumb ass girls. like seriously stupid. you re going to hit the wall, really? you re going to hit a brick wall? i tried calming myself down. i just i couldn t. and i finally just hit the wall like an idiot. i could be helping my family right now financially. i could be being a mom. but, instead, i m here. i feel so guilty and i feel so helpless. just everything combined, i had it. i snapped. later, styx expressed her anger to molina in a letter.