prepared to leave that. so for me, i lived through all that for over a full year. it started all back in march, and we would do long shifts, sometimes from liz30am, we would be arriving to the covid unit, and then we wouldn t leave all the way until 8pm, at times doing overnight shifts in the same covid unit. it was, as i said, no precedent. you couldn t deal with what you were leaving. no one really knew what to do. we were wearing this ppe, like, four layers, this big plastic thing that you couldn t even recognise your partner, so working and communicating in all that was an extra level of difficulty that we had to deal with. extra level of difficulty that we had to deal with. yes, and dealing with death and had to deal with. yes, and dealing with death and resuscitation - had to deal with. yes, and dealing with death and resuscitation of. with death and resuscitation of recent good day, which must have taken an emotional toll. himanshu, let me bring you back in, because