got to have my coffee, first thing on the list, coffee. nothing else to do but to sit around and workout and play cards and drink coffee. he does about 8 to 10 cups a day. it is a tough habit to keep up with his coffee habit. but on the outside, mcnee and his brother share far more dangerous addictions. on an average day, i could spend anywhere from $300, $500, to $1,000 a day on heroin and cocaine. i lived the life of an addict to the fullest, and i m embarrassed by it. drugs have a had a hold on mcnee and bubanas since a young age and played a major role with the troubles with the law. when we are out there getting high, the only thing that we are thinking about is the next high, you know what i mean? skpeemg scheming and plotting,
just ten years older, and i m better looking. i like my girls in twos. ask him who is winning. let you know at the end of the game. 34-year-old mcnee has been coming to jail since bubanas was a child. being locked up together has made this day a little easier. to see him in here hurts. you know, but at the same time, it is nice to have people around that genuinely care about you, and you know they have your back if something happens and it is a good recreation, he s a funny kid, keeps he laughing all day long. the same routine for almost 20 years. my grandmother used to call it life on the installment plan. ryan, unfortunately, bad news,
you re going to be doing life on the installment plan. that s what she used to say to me. i used to hate that. no, i m not. no, i m not. i m doing life on the installment plan. this time, mcnee has racked up eight charges including possession of a firearm, and assault and battery and unarmed robbery. he has pled not guilty to all charges, and he is a awaiting trial. and do me a favor to clean the tables when you are done and come by to give me some hot water, all right? though he takes friendly taunting from his brother, he arizona dollar a day working as a runner. basically there s four of us. we serve the trays, we clean the unit, pass out uniforms, and pretty much whatever we re asked to do, we pretty much do around here. the job lets mcnee spend more time out of his cell which is a another benefit better access to coffee. coffee in a place like this is very important.
does. he picked up using and doing his thing. but i haven t heard from him in a month. it is what it is. it s what he does. nothing i can say or do is going to change him, because if i was out there, i would be in the same position, and i don t listen to nobody either, and probably before i leave here, he might be back here, who knows. you know? mcnee is awaiting trial, and if found not guilty, he could have his own chance at a life on the outside. like his brother, he will have to battle his drug addiction to avoid coming back to jail. you know, i look in that mirror now, and my hair is growing gray, and i am starting to feel the effects of the aging process, you know. and my life, my life is just i don t know where the past 20 years went. they are by just like that. it is gone. when you re an addict, it really don t matter where you go. no matter where you go, there you are.
coffee in a place like this is very important. i like to have my coffee. very important. coffee. nothing else to do but to sit around and workout and play cards and drink coffee. he does about 8 to 10 cups a day. it is a tough habit to keep up with his coffee habit. but on the outside, mcnee and his brother share far more dangerous addictions. on average day i could spend anywhere from 300, 500, to $1,000 a day on heroin and cocaine. i lived the life of an addict to the fullest, and i m embarrassed by it. drugs have a had a hold on mcnee and bubanas since a young age and played a major role with the troubles with the law. when we are out there getting high, the only thing that we are thinking about is the next high, and scheming and not plotting and how to do this thing and