like there was yesterday when former officer amber took the stand, she cried and admitted to killing john in his own home. i ask god for forgiveness, i hate myself every single day. i don t deserve a chance to be with my family and friends. i wish it was the gun that killed me. i never wanted to take an innocent person s life. i m so sorry. prosecutors say geiger is a trained police officer, was a trained police officer rather that could have used training to nonlethal options if she thought a burglar in her apartment like retreating and using police radio to call for help, instead she went into the apartment alone, prosecutors also say guyger had been distracted and