On a personal level, I have really struggled to come to terms with the not guilty verdict. My first reaction, to be honest, was just plain shock that Stanley was found not guilty. Then, my immediate emotions turned to a feeling that justice somehow wasn’t accomplished. Why wasn’t this manslaughter, at the very least? I had thought this was clearly the direction this case was going. After I calmed down, I started to think hard about the decisions the jury had to make about this case in the jury room, before coming to their final decision. That has led me to my final mood, which is trying to figure out “what the hell happened?”