as well. because i had alwaysjust done things. just always been busy, always had, you know, a slightly chaotic mix of things going on and then suddenly couldn t do anything. suddenly i could barely go out of the flat, barely do anything at all. and also, not knowing when it was going to end. so that was probably the hardest time i ve ever been through. after i had been ill for a few months, i then got depressed, you know, quite understandably. and, yeah, that was really hard. did it chance yeah, that was really hard. did it change your yeah, that was really hard. did it change your view? yeah, that was really hard. did it change your view? because - yeah, that was really hard. did it change your view? because you | yeah, that was really hard. did it change your view? because you went on to be in charge of the benefit system, went on to be secretary of state for work and pensions. was there a bit of that experience that you always carried, maybe still carry with you? you always car