i just want to eat. come on come on come on. hey, mother. hi! i think i still owe them. i spent so many years chasing a dream, chasing a career. and missing birthday parties and anniversaries and graduations and babies being born and all those things. and because of this i ve had to reconnect more with my family and talk with my family and what s better than that? my father wilman died when i was 9 so i was raised by my mom, kathryn, who worked and by her mom, my grandmother, mary henrietta. my mom is my best friend now. my grandmother was my best friend then. she was my buddy. i can t wait to find out more about her. because i think she s the linchpin. you know i think about her all of the time. i even have dreams about her. like we are in communication. like she is still alive. and then i wake up.