what does it feel like the first time you reach down and your penis is gone. what is that going to feel like? my penis always was there, but it always seemed out of place. steven just kind of dying like the candle slowly going out. i thought it would look not wrong, but look odd, that it wasn t there. the thing i felt was that it looked right. too bad i wasted so many years of my life for something that was so easy to achieve.