Ruphobia, panic, and that type of thing. Is that the reason for the second door front door . Correct. Claustrophobia . Our home does not look aesthetically pleasing from the curb. You have that second front door . Yes, now its a place to host google interns. We live near google, so we have other students. Can you tell us, is there any other way this has affected your life . The primary impact was in the initial four years after the event. I struggled academically. I struggled very much in chapel hill, in college. When i was 17 and went off to college, i had a very hard time, more so than others, forming new friendships and especially friendships with boys. And i had academic problems. What when we spoke and it became very clear how deeply you felt about this and the need that you wanted to remain confidential, can you talk a little bit about that . Yes. So i was watching carefully throughout the summer well, my original intent, i want to remind, was to communicate with everyone when th