day, every day. clarence never left his gang. and he struggled with the desire to avenge his brother s death. and he talked about the fact that he would think about if the man who killed his brother ever came into prison, what he would do. would i let down my brother if i just forgive this? i ask myself that all the time. i try to weigh the options. i talk to my family about it, my mother. she try to tell me, don t, you know, don t even worry about it, which in a way makes me mad. because i feel she went soft on me. because i don t know how exactly i m going to control myself if i see who do this. i hope i do the right thing. i hope i do. but i don t know. i really, really don t know. coming up my first impression of lawrence stall was that he doesn t fit.
learned how to deal with the consequences of their past. they ve come up with distractions to really take their mind off of their crimes. but sometimes our very presence in a prison can change all of that. lawrence stall has spent the last two decades in prison. most of it at the holman correctional facility in alabama and sometimes it seems to have been just as long since he s heard the sound of his real name. they call me red top. hey, redtop. they call me redtop. they call me ringating red. is there one you prefer? none. i just answer to them all. i ve learned to answer to them all over the years. stall began serving his sentence 28 years earlier, when he was 22 years old. back when i first came here there was a lot of violence. was it scary? were you scared a lot? scared to death. my first impression of
today, doing this. giving of yourself to people who don t deserve it. she took comfort in what lawrence was saying. and i think it made him feel somewhat better to be able to give her some type of comfort. thank you. thank you. thank you. but i also think her sharing of that story helped lawrence get in touch with the people he had victimized. lawrence, how were you changed by miss tuthill s talk? um, i don t i just i don t know how i don t know how to explain it. i really don t. it s deeper than words can ever be said. i don t know if i ll ever if i ll ever have that kind of opportunity. and just to be honest, i don t know if i want it. it scares me. i mean, there s nothing i can really say to my victims to ease
lawrence stall was that he doesn t fit. he didn t fit in those surroundings. i think that s initially what brought us to him. he looked a little meek. the red hair. the glasses. he looked more like a college professor, versus an inmate. the social system in here is totally different. it s nothing like the free world. it s a totally different world, you know? i mean, it s like moving to japan and not knowing japanese, you know? you know, you re lost. and that s how i d be now if i got out. i d be lost. due to a fatal action he took as a much younger man, it is unlikely stall will ever get out. in 1981, he was convicted for the murders of two grocery store employees. stall claims he was high on pcp, when he and a co-defendant intercepted the employees on the way to the bank.
to make a difference. filming with miss tuthill was one of the most difficult things i ve experienced up to that point, and even through the next five, six prisons that we ve been in. and i remember how emotional it was. and out of all the inmates that were in that session, lawrence was the first one to speak up. i want to thank you for coming. lawrence was visibly affected by mrs. tuthill. when the two of them spoke, what was so interesting to me was lawrence wanted to make her feel better. you know, you said you couldn t protect her. i don t believe that. i believe you protected her and it was just someone else s violence that caused what happened. you protected her more than you knew. and you re still protecting her