mind, and so did mark david chapman. lennon was an obsession. it had to be done. nothing could have stopped it. i was out of control. so that first weekend in december, chapman returned to new york, this time with bullets and a blueprint for murder. he checked into the ymca, blocks from lennon s home and headed right to the dakota. it was a nice, sunny day but it was cold. geri and her friend jude were there when he arrived. he spoke quietly. he wasn t vulgar in any way. he said he was there to meet john. he said he wanted to meet him because he was a beatles fan and it was always his dream to meet
i made the bread and i was a house husband and i m proud of it. and it was an enlightening experience for me. after five years as a self-described house husband, sean started school and john started self-reflection. he took up sailing and after weeks of intention lessons found himself on a trip to bermuda in the middle of a fierce squall. at some point during a storm, he took the helm and it was almost light threatening. jack douglas, a record producer and close friend, said it was an awakening that turned a near-death experience into the rebirth of lennon s music. you become more appreciative of the little things that you do have. and i think that was reflected in the music in that he said, okay, it s time, i m doing this. because tomorrow might not be here.
thousands of dollars and a .38 caliber gun, chapman flu from hawaii to new york city. his personal calendar reveals a disturbed killer on the move, changing hotels three times in three days, hiring prostitutes, living it up like a man with no future. i went to front row plays, you know. all just blocks from lennon s only. but it turns out john lennon wasn t championmp haun s only m. he wanted to kill a sleb it and killing a celebrity means that you in essence steal that individual celebrity.
our life together is so precious together fall 1980. it felt to john lennon like his life was just beginning. it will be just like starting over starting over, his first single in years, was released six weeks before his murder. this burst of creativity that he felt was just he felt renewed. renewed, according to journalist david chef, after hissing rock bottom years earlier. he drank, he did drugs. he called it the lost weekend and he was out of his mind, out of control. he got really low and he talked about going through the eye of a needle. he said coming out of other side he was changed forever. he was getting the, quote, new lease on life, unquote,
you know, his plight, his loneliness, his alienation from society. and holden s fixation with people being fake. well, it was during that time that i read the book about lennon and read the catcher that it all just all melted into one, holden and john lennon. chapman began to see lennon as a phony, a man who sang about a perfect world with no possessions. imagine no possessions yet was also rich and extraordinarily privileged. i believe i turned all my anger of what had happened to me on lennon. i saw him being a phony and then buying it, people buying it. he was holding call field, the catcher in the rye and the catcher in the rye catches children before they are corrupted by life. he put himself in the position of being the person who would save the world from the corruption of john lennon. and in chapman s mind, there