e-mails from christians. i ve received some of the worst e-mails from gay men. i ve received some of the most beautiful or some of the most negative e-mails from christians, as well. and i think that people are people. and it s always wonderful to find a person with a keeped heart. mike: you ve talked in your book why you stayed. why would ted have had to have done to make you leave? he would have had to have chosen not to stay himself. if he had said i embrace the struggle that s been going on in me, i m just going to go that route, gayle, i would have had to have accepted that, but instead he said i feel as though i m in an a trap and i want out. i choose you, gayle. i choose our marriage, i want to fight for our marriage. he never walked away from god. he wanted to work it out in his life and his faith and so