age. tell me when you first remember struggling with an attraction to men. probably be about age 12. it wasn t a struggle prior to that until i learned from other people and was shamed into thinking it was a problem. reporter: at 25, preston married a woman but was still privately struggling with attractions to men. he says a buddy told him about journey into manhood and he decided to give it a shot. that was three years ago. it s been life-changing. it s been a whole new take on life. reporter: this particular weekend is a reunion. all of these men have attended journey into manhood before. most of them are religious, married to women, and some have children. there was a time when you took on an identity as gay or straight. reporter: journey into